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Inhibiting mY Tears

2006-11-26T06:22:00.000-08:00

Ferociously, anguishing, forcefully dragging myself out of the bed, galvanizing myself into this stained reality world. I've seen enough, ultimately sufficient which leads me craving for the existence of death-God, by setting my souls free..

Spend 2 hours in the morning baby-sitting my niece in the absence of my mother. I Like Kids, i do love them alot. For a moment they act as an disjunct, feeling my heart at ease.

Dread that this niece of mine doesn't walk the same path as me, No i won't let that happen, at the very least... with my presence...

Stumbling my way down to SGH, companioning my father to visit one of my relatives who was diagnosed with neurological slowset stroke. (that was medical terms way out of my Knowledge).

Due to the fact that our accomodating distance was way far, hence met up once a year (Chinese new Year). admitting to the lack of cohesiveness and unity in our family compare to others. It was a moment of intensity, gasping for breath, hoping that thier conversations will end soon and i can escape..

Found 2 young patients, one was much junior then me, couldn't believe that.. that life could be so fragile, so dispensable, so vulnerable... so prone to viruses and illness... couldn't accept that sick-devils spare no differences in ages. to think that a young teenager contracting stroke.. I'm just at a lost of words to carry on... especially when i'm a fellowship of nicotine, so when will cancer, stroke, heart-dieases, etc, strike on me?...

A New Era

2006-11-25T03:54:00.000-08:00

It has been some time since my last posting. Was rather occupied by the intense capacity of academics as well as relationships. No doubt there is still some spare time regardless of the volume of jobscopes, had spend it day-dreaming and sleeping and wondering around aimlessly. Which i confess that i am slacking from comparisons from the previous semesters. In the midst of that, a good mate of mine aided me by helping to fake the attendance(scanning of cards and forging of signatures) otherwise, i presume that my name would have been tarnished. And thanks to His compliments (Wah! everytime visit ur site see the heart-shape till i vomit, can please upload new stuffs or not? it's unhealthy for the eyes to keep focusing on the same thing over and over again) You really make my day man.. thanks for the motivation, else, wouldn't have proceed with this entry.
It's been a solemn day yesterday and the day before, it was a day to celebrate for, it was my sweetheart's birthday. Bought a blackforest cake from bengawan solo and lighted up the candles(though it was way in advance) compensated with a sumptuous dinner at vivocity after lesson drill.. in addition of a M18 movie which calls for the day.
Would hereby bring my uttermost sincerity in wishing u a very Happy Birthday once again!(though tis post was one day late :p) May all ur birthday wishes be fulfilled~ *Cheers*

2006-09-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to fork out some time to post an entry amidst my busy schedules.. being isolated in a rapid servicing and error minimal environment, unconsciously feeling numb and utterly devastated.. maybe this is just my pathetic fallacy.. oh god... please release my soul and set me free...

Had a simple yet sweet day with my beloved during my off day, (thanks to the rain) by obstructing us from setting off to town. Entertaining ourselves with an IN-DOOR movie session in my room named "STAY ALIVE".. Narratively speaking, the show appears to be rather gross, exposing in a horror and bloody environment, where players die concurrently until the hatred and cursed of the the evil is sealed.. For passive Gamers, this show is highly recommended.

This Part Is For You My Love

I'm terribly sorry for last night's matter, i shouldn't have jump to conclusions, assuming things that didn't happen.. shouldn't have said such cruel words. After all it was just an SMS.. i don't know what has got over me to be so rediculously unreasonable out of a sudden..

Maybe it's out of my jealousy, maybe it's out of my disappointment, whatsoever, to put it simple... i"m just afraid of losing this relationship and to lose you.. I don't know why as time goes by, as our relationships levels up, my mind just kept running wild. Occasionally upon thinking of that, i ended up showering myself with tears while dragging myself to bed..

Even right at this moment writing this post, my eyes was glimmering with tears, i just want to express my love for you. to let you know how much i treasure these 9 months of happiness being with you.. the gifts that we shared, the surprises that we gave, the hardships that we've been through, and the love we swore... I really very sorry.. Hope you can forgive me..

2006-09-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

Didn't manage to post my entry regulary due to the heavy jobscope which i'm handling nowadays. Much apologies to my dear readers, i will try my best to post regulary in the days to come..

Been managing my uncle's retail outlet for nearly 7yrs, due to the experience incalculated in me, several confidential and sophisticated tasks were imposed on me.. Awaring that it is my duty to perform well in the task assigned to me, it is therefore a necessity to ensure the smooth flow of the mangement. However it was way too much of an offer for me to bear.. but i'll just got to clench my fist and grind my teeth to move on..

10th september 2006 marks the 9th month of our relationship. *Cheers*!~
"Time flies when we are enjoying ourselves"
Sounds familier?? This quotation was abstracted in courtesy of "Mr Bean" (Rowan Atkinson), in a blink of an eye, we have already been together for 9th months.. Comparing to those long- running realtionships which last for 5 or even 10 years before getting married, ours are just a step on the path, so never get conceited, never compromise and most importantly never take love for granted. (which commonly led to breakups) There is yet more rougher and bumpy roads awaiting us ahead! So let's grip our hands firmly and head towards the pathway of eternal love..
Happy Belated 9th month!~

2006-09-04T11:16:00.000-07:00

Did some maintenance to mY PC by defragmenting, virus scanning and re-arranging files into folders. In the midst of arranging, happen to come across some meaningful pictures and decided to post it up to share with all.

As we know that the 8th of august marks a significant day for singapore, where all singaporeans unites to commemorate this day by taking oaths to safeguard singapore. It is also a day where all races come together to celebrate singapore's birthday and independance. Below are some pictures of the fireworks which i would like to share, that is being captured "live" by my beloved's mobile phone.

Credits to mY beloved claudia, for her splendid shooting skills by providing us with such glamouring and mesmerizing pictures. (Although i was the one gazing up the sky and leaving her with the shots throughout) :-x Sad to speak, due to the construction block, we couldn't gain any access nearer to the stadium. Henceforth we are left with no choices but to settle down at a open grass-field situated about 2 stops away from the stadium.

It is sure to be an unforgettable experience of a lifetime where memories of the moment are being sealed deep in our heart.. where hearings were occupied by the loud whooshing sound and eyes being captivated by the vibrant sky filled with colorful crackers. Especially, when you are experiencing it side-by-side with your life-time partner, it is definately bound to be a night fun-filled with intensity and bringing the surroundings to the climax.
I would like to grab this opportunity to express my gratitude to my beloved for fixing my psychological puzzles and making 2006 such a fantastical and historical one. *Cheers*~~

2006-09-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

WoKe up late today due to mental-constraint & Genes-instability on working with the blog designs previous
night.. when i was suppose to meet one of my schoolmates at 9am to support him for the superstart contest. Eventually got there at around 2pm and manage to see him before going into the audition.
This friend of mine inherits and resembles our overseas heavenly king "Andy Lau" (Right side is a picture of him) undoubtedly, upon scanning through the picture we can see that he is a highly charismatic person who distinguishes between a peasant and a highness, whom have cultivated what a superstar oughts to own. But sad to speak, he got eliminated in the preliminary rounds.. Although officially he failed to be crowned as a superstar in the public, but he will remain as "ANdy Lau" deep in our souls!

Left at around 4.30pm to fetch my beloved from her work and i was late again.. when i was supposed to meet her at 5pm.. Much apologies to her due to the malfunction of my cellular phone.. I'm sorrY.. Upon reaching there, thought tumor was planted in my eyes.. It was a shock of a lifetime i've ever had that i thought my souls were dispersing, to see her on her make-up again, though it wasn't the first time. (Left is a picture of her)
After which we went for dinner and assists her with her blog... With that i shall conclude that today was quite a hilarious day yet energy-demanding.. the reason that i felt exhausted and exasperated currently. SO now i'm heading towards the gateway of dreams.. (-_-)Zzz

2006-09-01T08:57:00.001-07:00

It's been some time since my first posting, much apologies as it was never intentional nor on purpose. First, i would like to express my appreciation to my dear friends who tag. Thanks for being supportive as your words meant alot by inspiring me and keeping this blog alive.

I shall briefly summarise those incidents that caught me dumbfounded.
Sad to speak, i fell terribly sick back then on tuesday 29th aug. which is the EG2098 examination day. Exerting myself to the maximum as i glide my way to the examination hall. I was set to perform in the paper as i have spend a great deal of time gearing up myself for it. Fortunately the paper turns out favourable for me. (^_^) Right after that i pay a visit to the doctor and i was diagnosed with fever of 38 degree celcius.. (i felt myself engrossing in flames)

Dusk to Dawn, another day came quickly, it was the last examination paper for this semester, undoubtly i felt unusually enthusiastic and in great spirits. But it was at this moment, my beloved broke out to me that she fell down and got herself injured, cuts and bruises were seen on her palm as while as her knees, worse still, her cellular phone was damaged. I felt uncontrollably sad that this mishap has to befall on her. Put under emotional control, i attended to her wound and tell her not to think otherwise and just concentrate on the paper.
It was of a moment frozen in time.. i felt the surrounding atmosphere hasty enough that led me gasping for breath desperately.. She may not Know, i was numb.. expressionless, sad, thorns piercing and any phrase you could think of to describe the feelings which i encapsulate right at the time. But now, higher priority things for me to do then keep self-reprimanding. Daily washing and medications were carried out, and the wound is healing progressively. Nevertheless, do not let your guards down and be sure to take care of the wound till it heals completely(especially during your working period).

Shall stop here as it's late, do not wish to suffer from fatigue as just recover from my sickness.

Good night to all.

2006-08-27T08:52:00.000-07:00

Credits and Acknowledgements to Darren Ng, for his patience and guidance in dealing with the sophisticated and complex high level language. ABove is a photo of him (Top right Hand corner)
*Cheers*

Waking up into this sunday morning was just like waking up into any other days.. nothing special, nothing appealing.. and everything seems dull.. it's just like living for the sake of living, no objectives, no goals, no purpose and no anything. What do i want to achieve in life? I can't even give an definate answer.. just know that i'll walk the path of life as the way it is.

Took out my EG2098 for revisions, couldn't concentrate as my mind kept swaying.. Questions of uncertainty was reflected on me repeatedly. "Why do i feel this way"? Maybe the memories of friday still got me fatally.. My beloved burst out with tears uncontrollably right before my very eyes.. although the problem was solved since then, but i knew it could never really be solved, as in her appearance may be fine, but deep in her heart i doubt so.. after all we've been together for eight months. We share happiness and sorrows, and we've been through much obstacles, SO what was it that is bugging you down and yet you couldn't bring yourself to confide with me? I understand that you do not wish to add on to my burden, but do you know that sometimes, somethings can never ever be as important as you? You know that you are my first priority in everything i do.. However, Your reaction at present, shatters my heart and cast me right into the death zone..
Subsequently, if this matter is to be prolonged, i couldn't bring myself to imagine the consequences.. which U and I kNOW that we do not wish to KNOW.. I wish that i was traumatized.....

Recieved a SMS from darren this late noon, poor boy he was being "left out" which supposingly he should be meeting his friends for revision. While.. Take it easy my friend, sometimes "things" do happen. If there is any questions in the academic, it would be my honour to provide you with the necessary assistance.. Good luck! and all the best to the members of EC0503.